Truth be spoken, we don't have much to fall back on when the rain starts pouring just above our head. You can recap your CV and remember how much some HR people appreciated you. You can review your awards from when you were knee-high in the spelling bee contest. You can hug your TV or beautiful car. You can cuddle near your husband, brother, parent, as long as they can stand your self-pity phase. You can do something constructive and go shopping. Or, of course, you can go partying yourself out of your wits and deal with the hangover in the morning.
I'm not here to lecture. Perhaps it is good to keep a list of all wonderful things that ever happened to you. They will provide a comfort and make you reconstitute who you are. Because, isn't it funny how who you are begins to dissolute itself in front of your eyes at the first nasty setback?
What I think is that there has to be a way of tapping into your own self-worth, your deeper self. Perhaps there is no price tag there, a salary requirement, or an Ivy League degree. Yet deeper than that there's the sense of inner worth, the value of who you are. You don't get easily down there. Yet sometimes when you are really down and out, there's a small light of hope shining. I will get through this. I am better than this. I will recover and get back into it. An instinct of survival perhaps, but also a glimpse of the deeper self.
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